Monogamy II

Shit is getting out of hand. We decided to pull the plug on the house and put it up for sale...I just cannot live next to these people anymore. Every day I look at the house or pass by the strangers I used to know, I feel sick, I feel stuck and I feel scared. We bought a country estate, we wanted the giant yard and privacy. I want to be able to sit on my back deck and not look into five other backyards, I want to be able to write and create freely and I cannot do that when the house next door haunts me. We close on the house in a couple of days and the day I get the keys for the next house will be my last night in this one...like finally finding my way out of the nightmare. That being said, my house is a sanctuary with the constant music, incense and family time, we've turned into hippies and there's no going back now.

The hardest part about this whole time has been not seeing my mother. She's 78 and there's no way I could even hug her right now. My daughter asks about her every day and we finally found an app where they could text, video chat, and play games together. I'm looking forward to having a big family Christmas for the first time in years.