A Love, A Loss and Peace V

The weeks rolled by as she and I jumped from the Jersey Shore to Queens to Manhattan. She loved the beach and the city, perfect distractions for a four year old but not me...I was living in my head wondering what we were going to do because I couldn't stay in New York forever.

Dan had been to visit us and I couldn't get enough of him, I wanted to keep him, to run away...to just go back to our bubble. I cried with him after she would fall asleep wondering how our new dynamic would hold and scared of what lay ahead. Dan had said that their house was different now, cold without the life that used to pour out with the laughter if the kids, the dogs and a happy family that BBQ'S even when it's minus forty...I miss those people. He doesn't think she lives there anymore, he thinks she took the children and herself out of the house...I would bet on that. Kaila won't mess around when it comes to her sobriety and definitely not when it comes to her children. I can barely believe how much has changed since we were all in Disney eight months ago.

Time was winding quickly, and it was almost time to go home...she has school and we have to get on with life. We hugged him tightly the morning he left us...we'd follow in just two weeks.